Though she came off as care-free, Tanya obsessed over her cellphone and her desire to take selfies. She had a need to show the entire online world how good a time she was having.

No matter where she was or what she was doing, Tanya snapped a photograph of herself, smiling, happy. Often she asked friends, co-workers along with that random stranger to join her in some dramatic pose of what the happy-life looks like.

Searching through her selfies, it’s easy to understand now that her happiness wasn’t real, making it hard to select only one picture for her funeral.